Do you agree that the one thing out of many others you need while growing up is your room or your personal space? No matter how small it is or however it is, it should be your own. Many of us can relate to this. There should be at least one place that comes to your mind when you are done with everything and want to cry your heart out, but such that no one would see you at your worst. We come across such situations often. When that happens, you need a hideout of your own in which you can confide your emotions behind its walls. Being there alone for some time allows you to reflect on your actions so that you can fix them and go on with your life with a clear mind.
After many requests from my Anna (grandpa) to my mom and us siblings to visit him once in 2 to 3 months , the day is finally decided to pay him a visit . Me , always reluctant to go has to accompany my mom now that my exam is over and I have no excuse to give . It is basically a bike ride from our home until we reach the destination which is approximately 30 kilometers . On the way , there's always some chitchat going on between my mom and my mama(maternal uncle) which somehow makes the silent ride somewhat interesting. But the topics they talk about are as expected monotonous, everytime it's the same . Especially the one about crops to be sown this year or the one's sown previously , their increasing or decreasing market prices , profit and loss and many more things which sound just like formalities to me( cause I don't understand most of them) but are really a serious talk for them . But my favourite part of this ride is mostly the green croplands on the both roadsides which are a rare scenario in big cities where I used to go for coaching. And I am the type of person who likes to stay indoors and step out only when required. But that's the reason I enjoy watching the landscapes whenever I am on such rides. Because you understand the importance of some things only when you are deprived of them .
You might have known by now that I am the introverted kind of person and that's why I can't do well outside my comfort zone especially with people ..or can it be called as sociophobia ?? Ummm..well yes but a milder one , because I can have a heartful conversation with people I know but find it difficult to make new relations. That's the main reason I hate being somewhere which is totally new to me . But the reason I am always reluctant to visit my mama's house is because I live a life which is very contrasting to them and it is hard for me to adjust there . I often feel uncomfortable whenever any aunt of mine makes remarks on why I don't talk much or why can't I cook and do household chores . Dude ! I am not preparing for " how to be a good housewife after marriage"...but for an entrance exam, and the fact that I am going for second attempt after failing in the first one is already very frustrating. Why do you have to add fuel to it :( Everything can be learnt when it is the right time for it . It's not like there's any fundamental rule for girls to learn everything once they've reached the puberty . Everything fits in the right place when there's time for it .
The society I live in was once a judgemental one and that too extremely but I can see it changing little by little now . But the one thing I have always been grateful to while going through all of this was my parents' support in every walk of my life . They gave me the rights to make my own decisions and backed me whenever I felt weak . But they also taught me that your decisions will have their own consequences and that you need to take the responsibility for it whatever the result may be ...accept it , learn from it and let it go as a lesson taught by life . That's how you become a person who's soul keeps growing . And those learnt lessons help you to cope with the cruel realities of life by becoming your shield against them . And that's how we become mature !!!
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